Something I have struggled with over the years is being ok with who I am and accepting it.
Sometimes I will be at a social event, when I would much rather be on the couch with a good book and a cup of herbal tea.
Sometimes I want to just put on my headphones and go for a walk on my own.
ALL THE TIME I just want to make deep and meaningful connections with people. I want to skip the small talk about the weather and my weekend plans and say exactly how I feel about things, listen about the other persons life and what makes them tick.
Sometimes I just want to sit down with a friend and talk shit about stuff that doesn’t really matter – but at that moment, we act like it does.
Being introverted, makes it hard for me to make connections sometimes, because I feel as though I live in a small box, and there is only enough room for a certain amount of people, and a certain types of people and once it’s full, that’s it.
I struggle with accepting that not everyone has to like me or enjoy my company, yet I also struggle with being true to myself when I don’t feel I vibe with someone.
Time is currency to me, it’s very important, yet I let little things get in my way of dreams and sometimes waste it on unmeaningful relationships.
Living the lifestyle that I live, with uncertainty and constant moving around for jobs has been a big learning curve and struggle over the years, because I thrive on structure and routine, and when that is constantly being played with and changed on me, it takes a toll.
I also have things I want to do and accomplish that I have been working on – but the confidence that needs to go along with it hasn’t quite manifested its self in me yet, to be brave to unleash it.
I had no idea where the hell this was going, or even went. I just felt the need to pen (type on my phone 😩) these little thoughts.
Happy Sunday – ps if you read this and made at least 50% out of it – well done. Gold star.